Life…. it can take on many shapes and forms. It can grab us by surprise. It can make us feel defeated and sad or joyful and happy. It can do anything. In any one moment, life can change in an instant and take us to places we have never been before.
With so many roads to take and so much left untold, I do wonder sometimes what to do for the best. What would be the right course of action to take? How can I ever know if I’ve made the right decision? Would the decisions I make propel me forwards into my dreams or lead me back to the beginning to where it all started?
Sometimes tough choices have to be made, or in some cases, forced upon us, making us feel like there is no choice at all. There have been a number of occasions that I have felt like that especially in dealing with my health. What I faced was forced upon me in a really big way and in that moment it changed the course of my entire life. It changed me.
When everything feels like it’s swept away from underneath you, it leaves you with nothing but yourself. There is nothing left to hide behind anymore and no corner left untouched. It was a hard place to be at first. There was such darkness and deep pain that I thought I could never come back from. However, if I’ve learnt anything, it’s that wherever there is darkness, there is always light. There can be beauty in our sorrows that goes beyond skin deep. It seeps right into the core of who we are to reveal the truth, to open our hearts to a place of hope and possibilities.
Feel the fear and do it anyway…
With less than 7 weeks to go, I am about to face my biggest challenge yet and the reality has really set in of what I’m about to do. I am climbing Mount Kilimanjaro, the fourth highest mountain on the planet. This has already tested me in new ways as I continue to train for this. I’m putting my body through so much and with constant aches all over and issues with my feet, it has felt like a big hurdle and I’m not even on the mountain yet.
I come home crying sometimes from exhaustion with my mind telling me how crazy this is. Who are you to even attempt this with no previous experience of hiking and after so many years of ill health, it says. I don’t really have an answer for my mind so I just keep going. I literally put one foot in front of the other, for each step I take is a step closer to where I want to be. I become stronger and more prepared and in the process it helps to reveal parts of me I never thought existed. It’s all good learning.
“Learning is the beginning of wealth. Learning is the beginning of health. Learning is the beginning of spirituality. Searching and learning is where the miracle process all begins.”
When it’s all said and done, with any journey, the most important thing is the person you become at the end of it anyway. That is the goal and the destination. It’s about what’s in our hearts for there is only love.
I believe in life.
I believe in miracles.