“The more you praise and celebrate your life,
the more there is in life to celebrate.”
My heart is filled with light as I stand still for a moment to celebrate what has been an incredible three years of my life. When I started my counselling course in 2010 nothing could have prepared me for what was to come and what I thought would happen is not how it happened at all. Having spent most of my life studying, this was a course like no other and challenged me in ways I could not even imagine. It really pushed me to look at myself in a new way and caused me to question everything I had ever known or believed to be true. There were times I really had to dig deep but my Buddhist faith gave me the strength I needed to carry on no matter how painful and upsetting it got at times. It brought me great comfort knowing that I was protected and that whatever I had to face was for my greater good. I didn’t know it at the time but it was helping me to begin the healing process, moving my life forward in a really big way.
When I started the process I was very sick, lying in bed on most days in absolute agony. I was barely able to cope with my chronic abdominal pain and taking medication that did nothing but suppress my Higher Self and the Goddess within. My course was part-time so I used to go to my class once a week, then collapse in a heap for the rest of the week not being able to do anything. I perceived my life to be a whole load of nothingness but over time it slowly began to change. I learnt so much about myself and how the mind and body was connected. This allowed me to tap into a power inside of me that I didn’t even know existed.
As I allowed more and more of that light to shine through, it really changed the way I saw my “pain”. I was able to develop a relationship with it where we co-existed in each other’s lives. It took me a long time to get my head around the fact that I was not my “pain”. It didn’t define who I was or how I could be. If anything it had been guiding me all this time, giving me signals towards my true path in life. It became my best friend and I welcomed every experience it brought to me. It is because of those experiences that I’m able to lead the life that I lead today.
Three years on, my life is fuller than it’s ever been before. Gone are the days that I am sick in bed and with my body free from medication I feel lighter than I have ever felt before. I feel so different. Everything feels like it is flowing again.
Sometimes you just have to let go….
Things took such a drastic turn this year that it affected the client work that I needed to complete, in order to qualify as a counsellor and get my diploma. It wasn’t easy but I had to let it go. In the end I had no choice as life took that decision right out of my hands. At the time I cried and cried and cried some more but I can see now it really was for the best. I am thankful for the way it has turned out and it was just what I needed.
I did however make the decision to stay on my course until the end despite stopping my client work. With only five teaching sessions left it felt like a shame not to stay. It took a lot of courage for me to do this knowing I wouldn’t get a piece of paper at the end of it but I think this was the lesson for me. It was about realising my worth without that piece of paper. I believe this course has always been about my journey of self-discovery and I wanted to see it through so that no matter what happens in the future I know in my heart that I finished this. It’s all the proof I will ever need.
Further to this, I was told that I was able to graduate with the qualification I received for the first two years of my course. So I did three days ago. Over the last few months I did have my moments about whether to go or whether I even deserved to be there. Then I thought to be myself, ‘Lisa, you’re crazy. Of course you deserve to be there.’
Although I have graduated once before with my pharmacy degree, which was a much higher qualification, this time it wasn’t about any piece of paper. This graduation meant more to me because I went purely to celebrate me and how through my greatest pain I was able to find myself and the Goddess within. It is the best gift that I could possibly receive so I know I have already won. I have finally arrived and it is an amazing feeling.
I don’t know what is next but I know I have everything I need already. I just have to believe it and see it – to celebrate each and every day that I am alive and make it all count.
What will you do to celebrate your life today?